Every day began the same way; on my knees with my face to the floor, I wept and prayed, “Jesus, I need you to come and get me. You’ve softened my heart too much; I can’t live in a world where people who say they love you could be so careless and cruel.”
Jesus didn’t take away my pain or remove me from my circumstances. Instead, He told me to seek solace in my Bible and dared me to believe He would do what His Word promises He will do.
Oh, sweet friend, there are no words to express how much I cherish this bittersweet season in retrospect. When I think about the time spent snuggled up with Jesus, I realize how few people experience this kind of intimacy with Him because it often comes at high cost and sacrifice.
In Matthew 16, Jesus explains to His disciples, if any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. (Matt 16:24-26 NLT)
As I let go and yielded all my desires to Him, He poured out His love demolishing my fears of abandonment and rejection and rebuilt my life in Jesus, the only true foundation. Today, I unequivocally declare, I am a different person, a new person, a much better person all because God held my hand and led me through the refining fire of adversity. And you know what, I’d do it again in a heartbeat because nothing in this world is better than intimacy with Jesus.
I can’t help but wonder who might be walking a similar path today, desperate to know there’s hope beyond her circumstances. So, sweet sister in Christ, I’d like to pray for you by name if you comment below. Otherwise, I trust the Lord to deliver.
Dear Father, thank you that you never leave me alone and abandoned to my circumstances. Thank You that You are with me right now, even though I can’t feel you; I believe You are working all things out for my good because You love me. With my mind fixed on You, I ask for Your perfect peace, trusting You and daring to believe the fulfillment of Your promises has already begun. In the mighty and precious name of Jesus, I pray, Amen